I hate today and everything else that had happened lately.

1) I think i fucking screwed up my interview with ICA.
     - I cant answer this simple question "How do you surpervise or lead a team which had more experience then you but they dont have the education to go up the rank?' I only figured out the answer when i left the room which is: Gain and earn their trust right? Wth shaq. And that qn came from the commissioner or idk who.
     -Waited so damn fucking long for that bloody screwed up interview. Dont get it why they put too many people at one timing. And the guy in front of me took fucking half and hour and when it comes to my turn, only like idk how many minutes. Pls tell me how dont i feel so fucked?

2) Since they asked if i had any more questions for them, so i went on asking about details for the job. I know its dealing with passports, ics and stuffs like that. But i wana know more. And it is a valid qn to me. Of course people who interview for the job will wana know what they will be doing. But their reply was so damn helpful but it made me look stupid. What? Read their website? Hell yeah i did read it. But hello?!?!? Just a website itself wont give me in depth of the job right?

Yayaya. Whatever. First i cant answer that simple qn. And second dont make me look stupid la pls. I just have that feeling that i wont get the job. Yeah, after making me wait so long. Im surprised if i got it. Im hoping i get it but nah, nvm.

3) Phone forever dying on me. I really need a new phone please. But i need a bloody hell job first la.

4) He got himself lost while we're on retail therapy and knwing my batt alrd died on me, isnt it so damn difficult for me to change my phone in the middle of somewhere at bugis? I chipped my nail while desperately trying to change phone and contact him. So damn fucking annoyed.

5) Was sitting down somewhere at bugis alone and i seriously wonder why all of those people who walked past me will definitely take a glance at me. What?!?! Am i not wearing clothes or what?!?! I know you have eyes to see but seriously?!?!? Not till like that please.

6) Us. Im sorry. What's left is just my empty heart, thanks to you. My heart is hollow filled with nothing. On the outside people might see us as a happy cpuple, but deep down inside, we are the only ones who knew what's going on. You can fake it to the rest. But you cant fake your own feelings to yourself. You know we're struggling. You know we're trying to keep us together. But whatever happened last week really broke and shattered my heart to pieces.

I think i should stop. Im just gonna cry everything else out. Be prepared for swollen eyes tmr. ='(