I guess it's settled that im gona find a full-time job instead of continuing studies. Since im so fickle on what to choose and since there's a high chance that my GPA cant make it. I never knew studies is this important. But what's the point of regretting now?

So i shall find a fulltime job in either HR or some admin stuffs i guess? And if i really wana do HR, only then i should take a degree in HR. I think. Considering the fact that i cant really go anywhere for now. Who knows i might even get subsidy from the company? Heheh. I told mummy abt it and she seems fine with it. It's abt time that i help them lighten their burden. Im alrd 20 goodness! So old.

So my next goal in life is to find a suitable job, take part-time degree, be financially stable and finally settle down. Things are going just like how i planned it to be. How WE planned it to be.

Just 5 more years bby! But 5 years is still a long way to go. And anything can happen. But let's just hope for the best. No no. Let's just pray for the best and work in that direction. That's more like it. =)

On an another brighter note, i prayed for the first time in i guess 2 years. And i was so frustrated with myself that i can actually forgot some it. That is what the 2 years had done. But that's a start. But i just still cant seem to bring myself to do the religious stuffs when im still doing all the things that im not supposed to. Everything feels contradicted. As though its not even sincere. But i believe someday, the time will come. I definitely miss being close to Him.