Friday, March 9, 2012 @ 2:24 AM
Late nights with my bbyfidelia.
Gona hug this furry purple bear to slp in a while.
If only i can hug the person who bought me the bear to sleep will be a whole lot better.
Hehe. Soon ah soon.
In the idk how many years to come.
*giggles*
I know i've been spamming alot abt the boy.
But cant help it la.
Really really miss him alot.
2 days of not communicating so much.
Probably my fault too. Sigh.
I hope i can meet him tmr. Or anytime sooner. =/
I should update about other stuffs too. The next time.
And upload other photos too. Which i have actually.
But too lazy to upload and think of what to post.
So shall save the other photos for some other time.
For now, time to sleep!
Have two dates tmr! Hehe.
Night nightssss!
Tuesday, March 6, 2012 @ 5:23 AM
I dont see you by my side in the future, the way i see him in my future. Be it he is or is he not a husband/long-term doesnt matter. Cos i see him with me, by my side in future.
And from re-reading our past convos, i only then realised how much she really loves you and takecare of you. I have to admit i've never liked her. But if she can make you happy and love you, i should be happy for you. Just like how im sure you're happy to see me happy.
After a whole two year long suffering and crying, yes i am finally over it. Cos i finally understand why we went our separate ways. I wont regret what we had cos it was special in its own way. I could have made smarter choices but maybe it was just the way it had to be. Maybe everything had to happen then in order for things to fall into place now. Of course i'll keep our memories in a tiny corner of my mind. Just a tiny weeny corner.
It feels great that i am feeling a whole lot better about the whole two year long thing. I've finally really closed my last chapter and my new chapter awaits. Well it had been there all along just waiting to be fully opened. Finally only now i am able to do it.
Now (and i hope forever) my heart only beats for the one special person who have always been there with me through those difficult times and never giving up on me despite how hard i am to handle, Hairie Aidil ♥.
Im all yours now. My heart is all yours bby. =')
Yes the heart had been hurt, stabbed and destroyed. But it doesnt mean it cant love again. You just have to give it another try. Another shot to the happiness and love that you've been craving and looking for all the while. It isnt as impossible as i thought it was. The right one will finally come along someday, during the perfect time and for the best reason.
@ 5:21 AM
Those were the things i've always wanted to do with him.
But it's better than how i imagined it to be, now.
Cant be any happier than this.
Really.
♥
@ 5:07 AM
Went Dbl O with dearest on Saturday night after accompanying him for his soccer match.
The night didnt turn out as well as expected.
But, im still grateful that we get to spend time together.
That's enough to keep me happy.
Spent the Sunday with his mates.
Out and about to 3-4 places.
Got all sweaty, wet and smelly from blow-wind-blow and relay race.
And got into a mini-mutual cat fight from playing dog and bone.
Hahahah!
Overall it was a great time spent rather than wasting the Sunday away.
@ 4:04 AM
My weekends was a blast!
How's yours?
Hehe.
Here's to another 4 more days to the weekend! ^^
Wednesday, February 29, 2012 @ 1:54 AM
Misses.
=(
@ 1:14 AM
Maybe another last post to just pen down my thoughts.
I guess it's settled that im gona find a full-time job instead of continuing studies. Since im so fickle on what to choose and since there's a high chance that my GPA cant make it. I never knew studies is this important. But what's the point of regretting now?
So i shall find a fulltime job in either HR or some admin stuffs i guess? And if i really wana do HR, only then i should take a degree in HR. I think. Considering the fact that i cant really go anywhere for now. Who knows i might even get subsidy from the company? Heheh. I told mummy abt it and she seems fine with it. It's abt time that i help them lighten their burden. Im alrd 20 goodness! So old.
So my next goal in life is to find a suitable job, take part-time degree, be financially stable and finally settle down. Things are going just like how i planned it to be. How WE planned it to be.
Just 5 more years bby! But 5 years is still a long way to go. And anything can happen. But let's just hope for the best. No no. Let's just pray for the best and work in that direction. That's more like it. =)
On an another brighter note, i prayed for the first time in i guess 2 years. And i was so frustrated with myself that i can actually forgot some it. That is what the 2 years had done. But that's a start. But i just still cant seem to bring myself to do the religious stuffs when im still doing all the things that im not supposed to. Everything feels contradicted. As though its not even sincere. But i believe someday, the time will come. I definitely miss being close to Him.
